Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful for my kids...I know I know...cliche right?



Well this week at my Apples of Gold meeting, it was about loving your kids. I truly needed it this week. Some days I feel like the worst mother. I either feel bad about :


-yelling to much, I really really need to work on this. I really have a big, loud mouth!


- not playing with them enough. I really try to make their day fun and interesting but I can only play tag so much or read a story so many times, or play a game so many times.


-sometimes I feel guily because I stay at home. I mean, maybe they want to play with other kids rather than me and I already told you about her horrible "friend" next door, so maybe they would have fun at a day care? Also, then we would have a lot more money to spend on nonsense stuff.


- the time we do spend playing, I end up feeling guily because its not educational enough.


- as I mentioned, Im ALWAYS tired, I feel guilty about this too.



All these things add up and I feel emotionally and physically exhausted at the end of the day. I realized that my kids have NEVER had a babysitter! Other than grandparents, theyve only ever been with me! Thats crazy! I think my parents would have left us with a homeless bum back when my sister and I were their age.


Ive also never been away from them for more than 2 days. I feel aways that sometimes I just want to not see them for at least a week. 2 days sometimes hardly feels like enough.


This is why I wanted to be thankful for my girls today. Because I realize that motherhood is one big ball of guilt, I am so thankful that I have this to feel guilty about!


Im thankful for their little voices, their little smiles, their little hands, their little eyelashes, the way the say "I love you mommy," the way they cry for me when I leave, the way they laugh, the way they dance, they way the care about others....I could go on and on!

What are you thankful for today?





13 comments:

Tabatha said...

Girl.. I know how you feel. I LOVE my kids more than anything and some days feel like the worst mom for some of your same reasons, I always feel I'm yelling to much etc.. not playing with them enough... But ya know yours love you... and mine to do.. when they walk by and say I LOVE YOU MOMMY just because.. it makes everything better!!

Rachel said...

i can only imagine ill be a terrible mother. lol
i used to babysit and the kids would want me to play with them like non-stop.
like dude seriously i dont play baseball get outta here!
time to pop in a video! (omg i know so old school) lol
what that video is done? time for another!
and on and on until their parents came home. oh and this all was only interrupted by my dinner making skills
*mac n cheese with hot dogs
to which they would say "thats not how my mom makes it"
well how the heck could i possibly make this differently!
its powdered cheese and processed dogs, who are u kids food critics?
ok. ranting done.
happy thursday!

Elaine said...

This was SUCH a sweet post!!! Your kids are lucky to have you.

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Paula Kathlyn said...

Thanks Jessica!
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Nikki said...

I'm pretty sure that all mothers feel that way....I know I do. Mia is only 6 months old but I still have ALL those same feelings. That I'm not playing with her enough or what we are doing is not stimulating enough or educational enough...what if she is slower than other kids because I'm not teaching her the things I'm supposed to at this time....I could go on and on and on!!
Today has been a sad day for me so I'm extremely thankful for my husband and my little and the rest of my beautiful family. I'm thankful I have a job even though I want to punch half the people I work with and I'm thankful that the sun is shining and Justin and I got to take Mia for a walk!!!

Alyssa said...

I'm thankful for a "bloggy friend" like you who says "motherhood is just one big ball of guilt". Gotta love ya!!!

Alyssa said...

Also, congratulations on your awards. Well deserved, my friend!

And thanks sooooo much for mine!

MommaKiss said...

oh being thankful for kids is a conundrum, don't you think? I mean, am I really thankful that they come to my bed at 5.30 am and poke my eye and say "you wake yet?" Or when they bend over for me to check if they "got it all" after going potty? Heh. Of course I'm thankful for that...because they're healthy and we're happy :)

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Sabreena said...

Hello, over from Friday Follow. Boy do I know what you mean about mommy guilt. I am a SAHM too and I am always feeling guilty about not playing enough and yelling. Sometimes yelling is the only way to get the attention I need to issue directions. I try to let myself off the hook for not playing enough by telling myself I am home with them all day and couldn't possibly be expected to play ALL of the time (it works occassionally). I do get away from my boys every Monday and Tuesday and my husband and I take a 7 day vacation once a year and let me tell you these are life savers. As much as I love my boys we all need a little breathing room.